The Day I Realized Silence Is Also a Choice — And It Costs More Than Words
The room was quiet.
Not the peaceful kind of quiet —
the heavy one that presses against your chest and refuses to move.
My phone lay face down on the table.
No notifications.
No missed calls.
Just silence.
I told myself I was busy.
That I’d reply later.
That some conversations could wait.
That’s how silence begins —
not as cruelty, but as comfort.
When Silence Feels Easier Than Honesty
There was a message I didn’t open.
I saw the preview.
I knew who it was from.
Someone I once talked to every day.
Someone whose voice used to calm my chaos.
But life had gotten complicated.
Feelings were messy.
And silence felt… easier.
So I chose it.
Not replying felt safer than saying the wrong thing.
Ignoring felt better than explaining.
At least, that’s what I believed then.
The Problem With “Later”
Days passed.
Then weeks.
Then one day, I realized something terrifying —
There was no later anymore.
The chat was still there, frozen in time.
The message unread.
The moment gone.
Silence hadn’t protected me.
It had quietly erased something that mattered.
Silence Is Still an Answer
We often think silence means nothing.
But silence is a response.
It says:
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I don’t have the courage right now.
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I don’t know how to explain myself.
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I’m choosing comfort over connection.
And the person on the other side feels all of it.
They don’t hear your reasons.
They only feel the absence.
What Silence Took From Me
It took a friendship I never got to say goodbye to.
It took closure I didn’t realize I needed.
It took the chance to be honest — even if honesty was uncomfortable.
Worst of all, it taught me regret too late.
The Lesson I Carry Now
Now, when I want to stay silent, I pause.
I ask myself one question:
Will this silence protect me — or cost me something I can’t get back?
Because words can be fixed.
Apologies can be given.
Explanations can heal.
But silence?
Silence only grows heavier with time.
If You’re Reading This…
If there’s a message you’ve been avoiding.
A call you haven’t returned.
A conversation you keep postponing.
This is your sign.
Say something.
Even a small truth is better than perfect silence.
Because one day, you might realize what I did —
Silence was a choice.
And it was the most expensive one I ever made.

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